Free Web NovelChapter 242: Chapter 242 Actions Of A Mate
Maze
I’m ashamed of myself and my behavior towards Kiara, but also to the girl with whom my Gamma’s are mated. It is not their fault, and she has done absolutely nothing to warrant me and Havoc to lose our cool the way we did.
My heart breaks when Kiara points out all my flaws, and I am kicking myself because I once again failed her. I keep fucking failing her and myself. Granted I was not the one who shifted and almost killed my Gamma’s mate, but everything after that was me. Even Havoc is feeling guilty for forcing me to shift and challenging our mate. We are both agreeing this cannot happen anymore. We need to be better. We didn’t even give anyone a chance to explain themselves back in the clearing. I sigh.
Kiara just stormed out of my office and my heart is hurting so bad. Did I really fuck this up to a point where she doesn’t want to be my mate anymore? Havoc howls in sadness in my mind. I call after her, but she doesn’t even react. I wait a second, my body frozen and my mind racing.
I followed Kiara’s scent, hoping she didn’t go downstairs yet. I need to fix things between us before apologizing to the triplets and their mate. Her scent leads me to her office where she is bawling on the couch when I open the door. I lift her into my lap, cooing in her ear and holding her close.
’Havoc, we need to do better by everyone. This cannot happen anymore! You can never just take over like you did earlier. We need to be calm and collected. Our reaction caused a lot of hurt. You heard Kiara, our Gamma’s were willing to leave our pack.’
’I know, Maze. I will try to compose myself better. You were not the only one who fucked up this time, but we need to mend things here before mending them downstairs. Today was supposed to be happy and fun.’ Havoc says back. He is as frustrated and broken by this as I am.
I keep holding Kiara close until her sobs become sniffles. She finally lifts her head and looks at me. Her eyes are red and puffy and filled with sadness.
"I’m sorry, Maze." She says and I am taken aback. Why on earth was she apologizing to me? I was the arrogant asshole, not her.
"You don’t have to apologize, baby. I was in the wrong and you gave me a harsh reality check! And you were right. You are the Queen and my mate, and you have every right to welcome people into the pack as you deem fit. I acted out of arrogance and ignorance. The thing that happened with my parents is in the past, and I need to give people a chance before judging. I am so sorry baby. I never wanted this to happen. I love you, Kiara!" Tears stream down her cheeks again, but she doesn’t look away. She is searching my eyes, and then she nods.
"I love you too, Maze. We need to get a handle on this mate thing before it really affects the pack." She says, and I couldn’t agree more.
We keep holding each other for a while longer. Kiara is hugging me close to her and inhaling my scent. We are on the same page, we just have to start communicating better. Or rather I do. All of the problems we have had has been my fault, and I keep hearing Selene and Inari in my mind reminding me I have to have a strong bond with my mate.
"But you seem to forget that all the time, boy." A grumpy voice says. I look up and there is Inari and Selene.
"What? No flashy lights this time? And what is it with you Goddesses and peaking into one’s thoughts?" Inari laughs, while Selene rolls her eyes. Kiara looks at the Goddesses before she looks at me.
"What are they doing here?" She asks the room, but it is really directed to me.
"We are here, Kiara, because you two keep going in different directions, and we need you on the same page." Selene explains, waving her hand and contouring two chairs for her and her sister.
"We fight. Every couple fights." Kiara says, crossing her arms. She is defending us even though we just had a major row.
"I know every couple fights, Kiara, but not every couple is as important for the future of all species as you and that stubborn mate of yours." Selene says, pursing her lips and trying to keep the amusement from her voice. She is failing miserably, but she is trying.
"Well, then you shouldn’t have put together two stubborn hotheads as ourselves together now, should you?" Kiara asks, switching from Selene to Inari with her eyes. freёwebnoѵel.com
"No, but you were supposed to tame his hotheadedness, girl." Inari says with irritation. Seriously, does she not know any other emotions than that?
"We are working on being better." I kiss Kiara’s temple and take her hands in mine. She reciprocates by leaning back into me.
"Maze, Kiara, we came because we need to implore you the importance of balance. You need to balance each other out, and you need to stop blaming yourself for all mistakes." Selene says with a motherly tone. I look at Kiara and her eyes show as much guilt as I feel. "We know you don’t blame the other. You both take all the issues on your own shoulder, but you need to trust in your bond and your mate. We paired you for a reason. Trust us and each other." We look into each other’s eyes, and all I see in hers is love and adoration. Has she been blaming herself? But she has not done anything wrong. Then Kiara leans in and captures my lips in a tender and passionate kiss. When we break the kiss the Goddesses are gone.
"I’m sorry, baby. I promise to be better." She smiles.
"We both need to be better babe. Come on, let’s get changed again and go down to the others." She stands and helps me to my feet.
Downstairs the music is blaring and we can hear people chatting and laughing with the occasional splash of someone diving into the pool. We walk out hand in hand, and I can feel our bond growing with each step we take. We talked in the room, really talked. We brought everything out in the open, and I finally understood. Kiara was so afraid I would eventually get tired of her and throw her out. She has nowhere to go and has been alone most of her life because of her old pack’s reaction to her fox. She showed her creature in public for the first time, and now she is afraid our pack will not accept her either. She knows and sympathizes with where Elena comes from, and she understands how it is to be treated like trash. A feeling I could never understand as my pack and family always have been there for me. Accepting me, even when I was a giant nimrod to everyone.
We actually cleared a lot more of the air between us than before, and I feel like we have become that much closer.
"Hey guys." I say, sitting down. Kiara sits down in my lap, kissing my cheek. The others look between us, trying to decide if we are good or not. The triplets pull their mate closer, gauging my reaction to her. I sigh internally.
"Elena, I am sorry for mine and my wolf’s reaction earlier. I acted like a fool, and for that I apologize." She bows her head in respect. "And guys, please do not worry. I am not going to do anything. My Queen already explained what happened. Elena is a pack member which you all know I take very seriously." All nod, and I smile. "Come on, let’s party and have a really good time together."
