Free Web NovelChapter 212: Chapter 212 Another Surprise
Maze
"Is it true you are not over your former mate?" The question is right on point, and for a moment the sadness over the new loss takes over everything. I know I need to answer this right for her to understand my feelings. So I myself understand my feelings.
"It was true yesterday. Today, no it’s not true today. I have been working, ever since I saw you standing there and looking like a more beautiful version of the Goddess, on my feelings for Mira. I have mourned her and felt sorry for myself for almost 2 years, and it still hurts. I can still feel the heartbreak. I have nightmares about it. And I relive the moments where she dies over and over again. But Amber, my sister, called me out on my BS, and I have tried to work on myself ever since. I even started therapy, but she wasn’t trying to help me. She was the one who told me to stay completely away from you." Kiara nods, she hasn’t said anything since I started talking, and I know this must be a little too much for her.
Maybe this lunch thing was a bad idea? I sigh. No! This is a good idea. If we’re ever going to have a chance, then we need to clear the air completely.
"Please say something." I mumble, looking down. My heart is thumping with fear. Fear that she thinks I’m ridiculous. Weak even. The silence stretches on for a minute or something, before she reaches out for my hand. I take hers in mind, relishing in the sparks traveling up my arm.
"That makes a lot of sense, but it also hurts me a lot. You are in so much pain, Maze, and you have pushed everyone away to endure it alone. Making the impression that you are an asshole, but in reality, you are hurting everyday. I feel sorry for you, but I’m also angry on your behalf. But you are not alone. Not anymore. Now you told me, and I am here. I am not going anywhere. We accepted each other, and I will stand by that!" Her words are so raw, so honest. I hear the sadness in her voice, the anger. But I also hear the comfort and the tender caring within her sentences.
"Thank you. And you are right. I have been suffering in silence, but I have really taken it out on the people who wanted to help me the most. I need to make a formal apology to the pack and my family." She smiles.
"That will be a good thing and a healing moment, and I will be at your side or in the crowd. Whatever you need, Maze." I squeeze her hand.
"Your place will always be by my side, or me by yours. We are equals, Kiara. And I have not been treating you as such for the duration of your stay. I am so sorry." She shakes her head.
"We need to let the past be that if we want to move on. And I am ready to do just that. You have apologized enough, Maze. Now we talk, and we understand." I smirk. "What?" She asks, her face adorably confused.
"You called me Maze. Twice." I answer, and she rolls her eyes.
"Alpha asshat." She replies with laughter in her voice. I lift her hand to my mouth and kiss it.
"Only for you, angel." She blushes, and damn me is that is not the cutest thing I ever saw. She is filling me with warmth and love. A new chance of living, which I have been to idiotic to realize before now. But Kiara is right. We need to move forward. "Okay, my turn. When did you know you were a fox shifter? And how did you get Winter as your counterpart?"
"That’s two in one."
"You’ll get a two in one as well." I lift an eyebrow, and she sighs.
"I knew from the beginning. I kept having dreams about foxes and a hidden Kingdom when I was a child. Mom and dad took me to a private witch healer. She is the best, and she sensed my animal. She told them what I am, and when my animal came to me on my 16th birthday, I shifted in the privacy of our home. She told me she was only here to keep me company and get used to my form, but I would get someone else as a permanent spirit companion when I was older."
"I thought you shifted later? Wasn’t that way your former mate rejected you. Sorry for interrupting!" frёewebnoѵēl.com
"No it was for that reason. No one knew. Only mom and dad. As for the pack. They believed me wolfless, although everyone could smell I had a counterpart. He saw me as weak because I did not shift. I chose not to. It wouldn’t have mattered." I nod, making sure she knows she has my undivided attention. She takes a deep breath.
"Winter came to me on the night before my 20th birthday. I met Selene and Inari, the Moon and Fox Goddesses, and they explained everything. We were attacked on my birthday, while I was visiting mom and dad. I shifted to protect the children, and pack members saw me. They despised my creature and hated me even more. Dad had before hand explained to them what I was, but knowing and seeing are two different things it seems." A stray tear slid down her cheek, and I wipe it away.
"You never deserved that kind of treatment, Kiara. I am so sorry, angel!"
"They never even gave me a chance. I was bullied heavily for my size and my shy nature in school. It became so bad I had to move school twice, and the second time it was to a private college, with an apartment on campus. Even the complex had guards. Only then did they leave me alone." My eyes harden. What the actual fuck! Where was her father in all of this? He is the Alpha of that sorry excuse of a pack. "Maze! Dad wanted to banish all of them, but mom said it was a much better punishment for them to continue to have them as Alpha and Luna, and know what they did to their leader’s child. And now they have adopted my brother, and their line will continue through him." She is right of course, but that doesn’t stop me and Havoc from wanting to kill each and everyone of her tormentors.
"Okay, moving on before you decide to kill someone." Kiara says, biting into a strawberry. She munches on the chocolate covered fruit, while pondering. "What would you do if Mira ever comes back?"
"Throw her out on her ass."
"Maze!" I chuckle.
"I would! She has no place here, Kiara. She left me. She broke me down and left me. If she wanted me as her mate, then she would have come back. But she didn’t. She made her choice."
"Okay, enough of the easy answer. You still have feelings for her. You cannot deny that, even with your mate bond with me. She has been there since your childhood."
"I would let her see her parents, but I would not let her come close to me. Yes, there will be feelings, but they will never compare to what I am feeling with you. She was there through my childhood, and I grew up with her. But she left, Kiara. And by that I mean I never had the mate bond with her. She left over a misunderstanding on my 18th birthday, and next time I saw her she... Died..." I finish kind of tame. But that word still hurts.
"What misunderstanding?" I guess that’s a fair question, and I tell her all about what happened. By the time I’m finished, she is fuming.
"That is a ridiculous reason to leave. If someone ever tries a stunt like that I will kill them for touching what is mine!" I smirk again, and she realizes what she said. She blushes again, and it only makes me want to kiss her so badly. But before I can move, Kristian is mind-linking me that my other surprise for the day is ready.
"Okay, come on. We can continue this conversation to our next destination." I say, reaching down to help her up. Her eyes light up in the cutest way.
"Another surprise, well, well, Alpha. Who knew you could woo a girl like this." She teases me and I laugh.
"I hope you like it." I say, leading her back to the pack house.
