Conquering the Emperor

Chapter 158: Reason to Stay

I spent the whole day staring out the window waiting for the sky to change color. From blue to orange and then to the dark of night. It was at the sound of the door opening and closing that made me turn to face the door. fɾeewebnoveℓ.co๓

“Ren...” I whispered his name sweetly when I turned around to face him.

Today, we will definitely talk things out between us. I will bend and apologize as many times as it takes for him to forgive me. I will talk to him sweetly and say all the things that he wanted to hear and then we can return to how things once were between us. Feeling extremely determined to right the wrongs, I plastered the best smile that I had to offer onto my face.

The grim look that Ren had on his face as he strode directly towards me made the smile die a quick death on my lips. What did I do wrong, again?

I got up from where I was seated as Ren quickly approached me. My instincts told me that I was under attack and that Ren wasn’t in the mood to listen to whatever it was that I wanted to say. Wordlessly, Ren grabbed my wrists and pulled me after him towards the bed.

“Ren...please wait...” I said, trying to sound calm and collected.

Without bothering to reply to me, Ren pulled me towards the bed before pushing me onto it. He got on top of me and straddled my hips. His hands hurriedly tore at my clothes as I cried out in shock and panic. I knew what he wanted but he’s being too rough and forceful about it. Rather than struggle against him, I let my body go with the flow of his actions as he stripped me until I was naked.

As he touched me in all the right places that brought me pleasure, I only wondered what he was thinking. The more he touched me, the louder that I moaned from the intense pleasure. My body reacted freely to his touches while my mind struggled to figure him out.

When he finally entered me, I cried out before my body began moving in time to the rhythm of his forceful thrusting. While my body enjoyed his passionate lovemaking, a small portion of my mind and my heart tried desperately to understand what Ren was feeling or thinking. It would destroy me if he didn’t feel anything at all...

I came many times before Ren climaxed and poured his seed into me. His body quivered and I hugged him with both my arms before I started stroking his sweaty back.

“Ren...are you ok?” I asked softly, not referring to the fact that he was still panting from his climax.

I think, he knew what I was referring to. Ren was still on top of me, and I could feel the muscles of his back tensing underneath the palms of my hands. Slowly, Ren slid his cock out of my love hole and got off me. I watched as he carefully laid down beside me on the bed.

“You’re going to have my child...and you’re going to stay here with me forever...” Ren said matter-of-factly.

“No...Ren...” I said softly in response to his shockingly direct words.

He’s getting it all wrong.

Ren turned towards me before he started trailing his fingertips on my flat belly. I watched his fingers slowly draw invisible lines around my lower abdomen as his face seem deep in thought. I wondered what he was really thinking.

“I’m going to fill your womb with my seed every single day until you get with child and when you’re done giving birth, I’ll fill you up again and again” Ren said as if he was talking to himself.

There was something that I wanted to tell him but before that, there was something that I needed to know.

“There are so many women in your inner court so why does it have to be me?” I asked abruptly.

Ren didn’t reply immediately to my question. His eyes were still focused on his fingers as they continued to stroke my belly.

“What about other women? What about Jeely? She’s been in your inner court for so long that she practically grew up here. She loves you dearly and dreams of nothing more than to have your child...” I said, trying to get his attention. I knew that he heard every word that I said.

“Is that really her true dream, I wonder. Or does she believe that it is because she doesn’t know of anything else or anything better?” Ren finally replied.

“What do you mean?” I asked, confused. I was pretty sure from my conversations with her that she truly wished to be with Ren.

“How can Jeely possibly love me when she doesn’t even know me? Jeely, I only remember who she is since she’s been teaching you lessons. If you had mentioned her name to me before this, I wouldn’t be able to put a face to that name. Of course, that would be the case because for the years that she’s been here, I don’t remember the last time I spoke to her or her to me,” Ren said coldly and without a care.

“That’s...” I said in shock. That’s so harsh...

Even if that was how he honestly felt. The truth was so harsh. If Jeely knew about this, it would break her heart...

“Jeely being in love with me...is impossible. She is in love with the crown prince. All women are. None of them are in love with me. Even if her love is true, it will never be reciprocated...” Ren stated indifferently.

Just like the night before. Ren got up and grabbed a robe, shrugged it on, and left the room. I wasn’t sure if what he told me was what I wanted to hear but I knew with certainty that Ren was telling the honest truth.

When the door closed behind him and I heard it locking from the outside, I wondered if I loved Ren. Then I wondered if I loved Ren as Ren and not as the crown prince.

Most of all, I wondered if he loved me...even just a little...

I covered my eyes with my hands as my mind wandered further into my endless web of questions and wonders.

If he does love me, what will I do?

--To be continued...