Free Web NovelChapter 289: Jisung’s story 14: He’s here
Sehwa’s POV
He’s here...Jisung is here and he’s kneeling for me.
Broad shoulders are dropped, shaking with the hiccups he’s letting out, his hair is over his face, hiding his handsome features.
Nothing prepared me for this; yes I’m mad at him for walking out on me like that, but I know that I also crossed the line.
He asked me to keep the boundary...
Everyone warned me ahead of now, they told me to forget it, to let it go...but I was stubborn.
I know my own heart break is my fault, but I also know...he is hurting worse, they always run when it hurts worse.
My chest aches from hours of crying, hours of forcing myself to breathe, and hours of wishing I did things differently.
"Jisung-ssi..." I whisper and he drops his head.
"Jisung-ssi...please come in, anyone can see you like this" I say with worry, and Keeho’s eyes bounce around the room.
My roommate doesn’t say a word, he just gets in to take his things and leaves the room.
"Please, come in" I say to Jisung and he gets up slowly.
There seems to be more grey in his hair, and his eyes are so tired, swollen from also crying too hard.
"I came to apologize" he says when we’re in the room.
I don’t respond to him yet.
It’s really easy for me to forgive him, but I need to hear more than just sorry, I need to know what I can expect and how to help.
"I just...I really love Yeon" he says and my breath hangs in my throat.
I knew that already, but still, the tears that stopped might start again.
I feel a feral kind of possession for him, and I know it’s not normal, but it’s just meant to be. freeweɓnøvel.com
My initial reason for coming to him was to comfort him, but now, I want more than that, if he’d let me, I want everything.
"You loved the Luna" I say, daring to use the word ’loved’, and he doesn’t disagree with me.
"Yes, I loved him for a long time but I’m doing something I never thought I’d do...I’m letting go and" he pauses to roughly run his fingers down his face and I stop his hands.
"You’ll hurt yourself" I say and he shakes his head.
"This is so hard for me, Sehwa, I’m falling for you and I don’t want to love another Yeon" he confesses and I release the breath I was holding.
"I’m not Yeon" I say.
During my break down, I had spoken to Jaehyun, and the young lord had spoken to his mother.
The conversation led to the Luna coming to find me.
He comforted me, explained what they’ve been through together to me...why it’s hard for Jisung.
When he loves, he doesn’t reserve anything; that’s why it’s hard for him.
"I know you’re not him, fuck I know, you’re Sehwa" he says to me, lifting he eyes to meet mine.
And I take a step forward.
"I’m so angry at you" I say and the older drops his head again, "I’m sorry, Sehwa, I swear I’m sorry"
"But I’m willing to give this a try, if you are" I say and his head snaps up.
He looks conflicted for some seconds, and I can’t help myself, I bury my fingers in his thick hair and start to play with the strands.
He’s falling for me too...
"I haven’t loved in years" Jisung says like it’s meant to make me change my mind, but I only chuckle.
"We can learn together" I say.
"I don’t know how to communicate" he says, voice dropping lower, and I make him sit on the edge of my bed.
"It’s great that I’m a pro at it" I mutter, focused on straddling him.
"I’m old" he says, dropping his head against my shoulder.
"It’s hot"
"I don’t deserve you"
"Jisung-ssi" I call his name and he hums in response, "please just hold me, and never let go" I say.
His arms hold my body to his and I let go as sobs start to rack my body.
"I’m sorry" he says, holding me even tighter, pressing his face into the crook on my neck, "beautiful boy, I’m so sorry"
"I’m just happy, I’m happy" I say and pull away from him.
"I should be the happy and crying one, you still took me back...why?" he asks, rubbing his hand up and down my back in slow motion.
"My mother and father didn’t stay together, my mother walked away from us to chase her dreams and dad...for the days he lived, he had that look in his eyes" I explain and look in his eyes.
"That sad, painful look...I hate it" I say to him. ƒгeewebnovёl.com
"I feel it, I try to ignore it...I fuck, I smoke, I stay away from affection...but it’s always there, till you came...you scared me" he says softly, Adam’s apple bobbing as he swallows.
I don’t know what to say, so I tilt his head up.
His eyes are heavy, but not sad, like he’s slowly letting go and letting me in and I love it so much.
I want to see what he looks like happy; how does he look when he smiles? Does he have smile lines? Does he smile with his eyes?
"You’re so handsome" I mutter and he breathes out, lips curving into a faint smile as he looks at me.
"You’re more handsome...beautiful" he says and I grin down at him.
I’m happy.
"Have you slept?" I ask softly and he shakes his head, my hands drift to his shoulder, taking in how tense he is.
"Good then, come lay with me" I say and he looks down at himself.
"I’m dirty"
"It’s okay, we can shower together" I say and get off his lap.
I help the alpha undress, seeing the way his muscles tight, veins are popping under his skin and I trace them.
"Don’t hurt yourself" I murmur.
"Hmm" he says in agreement, abs tensing under my touch.
I take his hand and lead him to the bathroom.
My roommate doesn’t return even after the shower, and after we lay in my small bed. It’s when I check my phone that I saw the message he sent:
Keeho:
You got the Son Jisung on his knees? Wow
I won’t be coming home, two of you should have fun.
I switch off my phone with a smile on my face before dropping my head on the sleeping alpha’s shoulder.
I’m really in love.
