Free Web NovelChapter 747: Chapter 182: I Regret Becoming a Goddess (Update 3)
"What’s wrong?" Xi Qianxue looked at Mu Qingge, her eyes filled with confusion.
Mu Qingge suddenly looked over, making her a bit uneasy and anxious, her heart racing.
"Tell me what happened to you back then," Mu Qingge said.
Xi Qianxue was stunned.
She then realized that Mu Qingge was asking about their encounter with the little monster. Knowing her purpose, Xi Qianxue looked at Mu Qingge again and found those clear eyes so pure without any tinge.
And she herself just now...
’Sigh! What am I thinking randomly?’ Xi Qianxue scolded herself in her heart.
Seeing Xi Qianxue not replying for a long time, Mu Qingge slightly frowned and walked towards her: "Is there anywhere else you feel uncomfortable?"
Xi Qianxue hurriedly lifted her head, shaking her hands, "No, nothing. It’s already okay, thank you."
Mu Qingge slowly shook her head.
That pair of eyes fixed on her again, Xi Qianxue took a deep breath, calming her thoughts, and recalled the battle with those little green-skinned monsters.
"Originally, I was dealing with just one. But when it rushed over, suddenly it split into several, and when my sword pierced its chest, it felt like it was pierced into the air. Moreover, the monster I stabbed would split into another, the more we killed, the more they multiplied. And regardless of where the attacks landed on them, they continued to reproduce..." Xi Qianxue described the process carefully.
She knew Mu Qingge wanted to find a flaw in dealing with these monsters, so she spoke very meticulously, not only about her side, but she also recounted what she saw from Ying Ze’s side.
Mu Qingge listened silently, her gaze slightly darkened.
She kept deducing in her mind, ’These monsters have no gender, could it be that they reproduce in this cell-like splitting manner?’
"Later, Ying Ze and I were surrounded. Fortunately, Ji Yaohua arrived in time and helped us share some of the burden from outside, allowing us to break through. Subsequently, Ji Yaohua controlled a powerful wind, blowing these entangling monsters up into the sky, enabling our escape. Those monsters could not only attack our Spiritual Sense but were also fast, with claws that were exceptionally sharp, easily breaking our defenses." Xi Qianxue recounted slowly.
’If they really are like cells, how could they be exterminated?’ Mu Qingge pondered hard in her mind.
Xi Qianxue finished speaking and saw Mu Qingge was deep in thought, so she did not disturb her, simply quietly keeping her company.
’No, the direction is wrong!’ Mu Qingge slightly frowned, completely overturning her previous assumptions and starting again. ’Why do these monsters have different forms? Why are the ones taking action always those short monsters? Those two tall monsters barely moved except when using that cloth bag to collect leftover souls; they mostly commanded the short monsters to attack.’
Mu Qingge slowly paced a few steps, then stopped and imagined in her heart, ’If these tall monsters can control the short monsters, wouldn’t killing the tall ones cause the short monsters to lose control? Just like robots, losing the transmission of commands, they would become still!’
This thought made Mu Qingge’s eyes light up.
Xi Qianxue had been observing her, and seeing her bright eyes, she seemed to have discovered something, feeling joy as well.
Her happiness wasn’t because Mu Qingge might have found a way to handle those monsters, but was triggered by seeing Mu Qingge’s expression.
Mu Qingge felt that this assumption had certain feasibility and continued to delve deeper along this thought, ’From current contact and previous observations, it can be seen that the tall monsters play the role of commanders, while the short monsters are the executors. The short monsters’ Attack Power is very strange and strong. Then, might the tall monsters have less or even no Attack Power? After all, their roles are clear-cut, with the tall monsters primarily contributing intellectually! Moreover, those two tall monsters were always surrounded by short monsters, they were protecting them!’
Mu Qingge’s eyes gradually narrowed, ’If this thought is correct, then would solving everything be as simple as killing the tall monsters?’
Mu Qingge’s brow tightened as she paced back and forth.
Theory is theory, it must be tested to prove right or wrong! At this moment, no matter how she imagines, it’s all idle thoughts, whether it’s right or not, they likely need to find those monsters to verify.
Xi Qianxue watched Mu Qingge think closely.
She sat by the campfire, held a piece of dry wood with one hand, propped her chin with the other, quietly watched Mu Qingge. Suddenly, she felt it was good like this, very serene, very still, not disturbed, and she felt very cheerful.
Almost like, as long as she could watch Mu Qingge like this forever, she would feel very satisfied.
She knew, she had fallen.
She indulged herself to sink because only by experiencing it could she truly let go.
But—
Xi Qianxue’s eyes suddenly dimmed, the smile at the corner of her mouth gradually faded. She asked herself in her heart, ’When leaving here, can I truly let go of everything?’
Xi Qianxue’s eyes flashed with a painful struggle, she told herself inside: ’No! Xi Qianxue, you must forget, let go! Otherwise, you will only bring disasters to many people, and even he will be implicated...’
She raised her eyes, looked at Mu Qingge’s figure, determination flashed deep in her eyes.
Concealing her thoughts well, Xi Qianxue showed a smile of happiness again. Even if this happiness is only what she believes in; even if this happiness is very brief; even if it’s just self-deception, she is willing to give everything for it.
Mu Qingge ended her thinking, lifted her eyes and saw Xi Qianxue staring at her.
She felt a bit awkward and walked over to sit by the campfire. Between her and Xi Qianxue, the fire leaped continuously, casting their expressions into shadowy obscurity.
She hesitated, whether to tell Xi Qianxue she was a woman.
Then, she would no longer have any thoughts about her. But now, it’s clearly not the time to discuss this, what if Xi Qianxue couldn’t handle the fact she was female and inadvertently did something rash?
Those monsters still didn’t know if they continued to pursue, Ji Yaohua and Ying Ze were uncertain of their current conditions. Now, indeed wasn’t the time to discuss their issues.
After considering in her heart for a while, Mu Qingge still gave up confessing.
’Talk about it when leaving here,’ Mu Qingge told herself.
"What are you thinking?" The silence between them made the atmosphere increasingly awkward, and Xi Qianxue eventually took the initiative to break the silence.
Mu Qingge lifted her eyes, looking at her and slowly shook her head.
Xi Qianxue didn’t mind, smiling as she asked, "Do you know what I’m thinking?"
Mu Qingge was taken aback, shaking her head again.
Xi Qianxue smiled at her and whispered, "I think I’ve somewhat regretted my decision back then."
"The decision back then?" Mu Qingge frowned, not understanding what decision she was referring to.
Xi Qianxue nodded, still looking at Mu Qingge, "I regret entering the Divine Hall as a Goddess."
Uh...
Mu Qingge was stunned, not knowing how to follow up on that topic.
However, Xi Qianxue didn’t seem to need her to say anything, and instead continued on her own, "When I was very young, just born perhaps, my fate seemed to have been decided early by my family. From the moment I became sensible, everyone around me was telling me that I was to enter the Divine Hall as a Goddess. At that time, I didn’t understand what being a Goddess meant; my mother told me that a Goddess was the most noble and sacred woman on this land..."
Xi Qianxue suddenly talking about her own affairs left Mu Qingge a bit confused.
But since she wanted to talk, Mu Qingge had no intention of stopping her and quietly decided to be a listener instead.
Xi Qianxue chuckled, "I was too young to understand what nobility or sacredness meant. My mother simply told me it was something every woman wished for, and I should be no exception. Later, as I grew up, I understood why I was designated to become the Divine Hall’s Goddess as soon as I was born." She looked at Mu Qingge, as if waiting for her response.
Mu Qingge grinned, "It’s because of your Innate Water Spirit Root."
Xi Qianxue nodded slowly, "Yes, because I have the Innate Water Spirit Root. At the time of my birth, my master sensed it. So that’s how I became the Divine Hall’s Goddess."
"Your master is...?" Mu Qingge asked.
Xi Qianxue replied, "My master is the Divine Hall’s Divine Venerable, the most powerful person in the entire Divine Hall. According to him, if I cannot enter the Divine Demon Continent in the future, I would succeed his position and control the whole Divine Hall."
Mu Qingge gasped.
She understood that Xi Qianxue’s identity as a Goddess was akin to being a country’s Crown Prince. If she remained in the Middle Ancient Realm, she would become the head of the most powerful faction.
"I officially entered the Divine Hall at the age of thirteen, becoming a Goddess. At that time, my master told me that becoming a Goddess meant dedicating my life to the Gods, thus I must never have personal feelings, fall in love, or marry, lest my purity be tainted. Furthermore, in due time, I would have to cut ties with my family." Xi Qianxue said this while looking at Mu Qingge.
Mu Qingge remained silent, Xi Qianxue’s fate seemed to have left her no room for choice, it was all decided by others.
"My parents told me it didn’t matter, that even if I left the family in the future, I would still be their daughter." Xi Qianxue smiled faintly, "But now, I somewhat regret it."
"..." Mu Qingge was at a loss for words.
Even with her insensibility to matters of the heart, she could clearly feel that Xi Qianxue’s words were related to her.
"Sadly, it’s too late for regrets. I am already the Divine Hall’s Goddess, and nothing can change that. So, I can only say these things to you in this sealed space. Once I leave here, I won’t admit to any of it." Xi Qianxue said, smiling.
Mu Qingge had never seen such a smile on her face before, a smile that resembled a girl next door, lacking the sanctity and nobility of the Goddess.
Suddenly, Xi Qianxue stood up.
Mu Qingge looked up and saw her walking towards her.
Mu Qingge raised an eyebrow, not knowing what Xi Qianxue intended to do.
Then Xi Qianxue stood in front of her, crouched down, kneeling before her, her eyes shimmering as she looked at her. Mu Qingge felt her body stiffen slightly, at a loss for what to do.
Fortunately, Xi Qianxue didn’t do anything inappropriate, just slowly leaned down, placing her head beside Mu Qingge’s knee.
She rested on Mu Qingge’s leg like a coquettish kitten, curling her body.
Mu Qingge had been sitting cross-legged, and with Xi Qianxue lying like this, she dared not move.
"This way, I can fall asleep." Xi Qianxue quietly explained her action.
"..." What else could Mu Qingge say?
"Mu Qingge..." suddenly, Xi Qianxue softly called her name.
This made Mu Qingge’s body tense, fully alert. As if she were about to engage in some battle the next moment.
"I mean, if... just if... if we had met earlier, would you have liked me?" Xi Qianxue asked, gathering the greatest courage to voice this question she was unwilling to let go.
"If we had met before I became a Goddess, I would certainly have refused to become one, trying everything to stay by your side. If so, would you have liked me?" Xi Qianxue said in the softest, faintest voice.
Mu Qingge’s spine stiffened, her lips tightly pressed together.
Xi Qianxue waited for a while without seeing her react, nor hearing a reply. She revealed a relieved smile, saying, "Alright, I know the answer."
Her smile gradually disappeared, and even though she tried to hold back, a tear slipped from the corner of her eye, wetting Mu Qingge’s pants.
Feeling the evident moisture and seeing her sorrowful silhouette, Mu Qingge sighed in her heart, speaking, "What in the world is there about me that makes you like me?" They barely had much interaction, having hardly met a few times.
Moreover... those women like Xi Qianxue, she felt she did nothing to warrant attracting them in such a manner.
Qin Yilian, Qin Yiyao, Wei Guanguan, and that young Miss from the Hua Family, the Young Master of Wu Gou Mountain Villa... Then there was Xie Ya, and now there’s also Xi Qianxue.
