Free Web NovelChapter 143: Finding Light
The time he spent with his kind and loving mother. The peaceful days they spent together that she would shower him with love and care. That was all before his mother changed as the responsibility of being the empress ate at her and killed her slowly from the inside out.
“I wish that you had never been born! It’s because of you that I’m stuck here...” his mother screamed at him.
“Mother...” Ren whispered in shock.
“Don’t call me that. Why did you have to be born? Why? Why did you have to be born?! Why?!” she screamed louder hysterically as she started to cry.
“Mother...please stop...” the boy whispered.
“Don’t touch me! Someone...is someone there? Take him away! Take him away from me!” the previous empress yelled as if crying desperately for help.
The dream always ended the same with the little boy being pulled away by many maids from his mother. The boy sobbed and cried but in the end, he was taken to his room where he would be far away from his mother. Ren knew that while the boy was crying in his room, the dream would come to an end.
Ren sat up in bed with a start. He was right, the same dream always ended the same way and tonight was no different than the others.
“Are you ok? Did you...have a nightmare?” Rin said and he could see the worry in her face as she reached out and touched a hand to his cheek.
Slowly, he covered her hand with his own, feeling the warmth of her palm against his cheek.
“No...” he lied so that she wouldn’t have to worry. Also, he wasn’t sure if seeing a bad memory in his sleep on repeat would count as dreaming.
“Ok...umm...do you...want me to hold you?” Rin offered in a small and shy voice.
He could see that she was uncomfortable about her own offer, but she decided to do it anyways to make him feel better and for that he felt extremely thankful.
“Yes...” Ren replied simply.
Rin smiled a little at him before she scooted closer and wrapped her arms around his body. The feel of her naked skin on his felt good and he smiled as he started playing with a strand of her hair absentmindedly. Thankfully, Rin didn’t ask him any more questions. He didn’t want to tell her about the haunting memories of his past; he just hoped that she wouldn’t have to go through what his mother did. That was all.
When he looked down at Rin’s face again, she had already fallen asleep. Her eyelids were closed, and she was breathing regularly. His eyes wandered down her body to her still-flat belly and he sighed a sigh of relief. Before his thought would darken further, he covered her body with the blanket. He knew why he had that dream, and he also knew that sleeping with Rin every night like this wasn’t right but it was hard for him to stop himself...
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“My Lady?” a maid called out to me from in front of my bedroom door.
“Come in,” I said softly.
“Are you not going out today, My Lady?” the maid asked politely.
“I’m...not feeling well,” I admitted softly.
“Should I get a doctor?” the maid asked sounding a little panicked.
“No...it’s...that time of the month...” I replied a little shyly.
“Oh...excuse me. I’ll prepare some cloth for you right away...” the maid said quickly.
“Thank you...” I thanked her softly.
I heaved a loud sigh after the maid had left. Being a woman is so difficult. Being a woman with an irregular bleeding interval was worst. I knew from a long time ago that my time of the month wasn’t regular and that had made predicting its arrival extremely difficult for me. I never knew if my bleeding was here early, late or on time. It had never bothered me, and I never thought that it would until now...
Since I didn’t remember when was the last time that I bled, I was worried and eagerly waiting for my bleeding time to arrive. All so that I could confirm that I was not pregnant with Ren’s child. The usually dreaded moment of the start of my monthly bleeding had turned into a moment of relief lately.
I placed a hand over my slightly aching stomach and sighed once again in relief. Thankfully, I had somehow survived another month without getting with child...
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A few days later, I was able to go out again and live life like normal. My bleeding had stopped completely, and life resumed as normal. I was walking along the hallway while on my way back to my room in the early evening when I heard loud chatting. It must be the maids...
“The summer festival is here again!”
“I can’t wait to go to town. I want to go shopping. I’ve been saving up for this!”
“Me too. Last year there were so many merchants there with new clothes and shoes,”
“I look forward to the snacks that they’ll bring in from the different cities. Those are the best and it’s only available during the festival,”
“I heard that this year there will be many dance performances...oh and music too!”
“Oh...Good evening, My Lady,” a maid said when she noticed me.
“Good morning. Is there going to be a festival in town? Sorry, I overhead your conversation,” I asked, excited to hear more about it.
“Yes, My Lady. There’s a festival going on right now. It will last for only three days...” the maid replied politely.
“Where is it?” I asked.
“It’s held at the same place every year, My Lady. The central square is where the festival is held,” the maid replied with a small smile.
“I see. Thank you. I have to go now, have a nice evening,” I said brightly before walking off.
The festival sounds so exciting. Without knowing, I had started to wish to go to the festival. However, the festival was located outside of the palace. If I wanted to go then, I must get permission from Ren. I wondered if he would allow it or would he think that going to a festival was nonsense. Work had been so busy for both of us, and I felt that it might be a good thing if we took a break.
--To be continued...
