Claimed By The Rival Alpha

Chapter 48: Chapter 48

Selena

Why did I say that? Why did I ask him how I can help him out? The question echoed through my mind the moment the words left my lips.

I stared at Alpha Kael’s back as he now stood by the window with his back turned against me, and his broad shoulders rigid, the afternoon sunlight spilling over him. His silence to my question stretched painfully between us.

My heart sank as different thoughts ran through my head at that moment. Had I crossed a line?

I tightened my grip around the bedsheet wrapped around my body.

"I’m... sorry." My voice came out quieter than I’d intended. "I shouldn’t have said that."

He remained facing the window for another heartbeat before answering. "Don’t apologize."

I blinked as he still didn’t turn to face me.

"I mean it, Selena."His voice was calm, but there was a heaviness beneath it. "Don’t apologize for telling me how you feel."

I swallowed. "It’s just..." I lowered my gaze. "I never knew how a mate bond worked because I’ve never seen one happen before now."

He remained silent, allowing me to continue. "I always thought it’d be easy."

A bitter laugh escaped me. "When we made that agreement not to culminate our bond, I truly believed we could simply decide not to complete the bond and be able to leave our daily lives without any issues."

I shook my head with a loud sighed then said. "I was just being so naïve and stupid to make such an agreement with you." My wolf stirred sadly within me. "I didn’t know that every time I merely looked at you..."

I pressed a hand against my chest. "...my wolf would wake up inside of me. I didn’t know she’d become restless. I didn’t know she’d push me toward you every single day and also feel so drawn to you. My wolf wants you so much that I could barely refrain myself anymore from you."

My voice grew softer. "And every time you walk away from me... it hurts so much because my wolf didn’t like it when you kept pushing us away from you. My wolf wishes to be closer to you than be in that maid quarters."

I laughed weakly as I continued. "It made no sense right? I’d tell myself I was only keeping my promise but my wolf..."

I smiled sadly."...my wolf never understood our promises. She only understood him and only wanted him."

I closed my eyes briefly then proceeded. "The night in the main hall..." Heat still rushed into my cheeks despite everything that Alpha Kael had done to my body, I still felt shy speaking about it.

"When you touched me for the first time against the pillar that night at the main hall..." I breathed out slowly. "I wasn’t frightened, instead I was so relieved and glad. I was exhilarated and since then, I want more of it from you."

"I’d wanted you to touch me for days without even realizing it." I laughed nervously. "That sounds ridiculous..."

My fingers tightened around the sheet. "But it’s true." I lifted my eyes back to him. "Ever since then...I’ve wanted you and my wolf wants you more."

The room became quiet again as Alpha Kael still hadn’t moved or turned to spare me a glance since he turned his back against me.

The silence became unbearable so I finally asked the question I’d been holding inside. "Is it like that for you too? I want to know how your wolf feels about all of these... is your wolf a pain in your ass too?"

He didn’t answer immediately. Seconds crawled by then he quietly said, "No."

My heart dropped, the warmth inside me vanished instantly and I started regretting all of my actions. Regretting why I had foolishly allowed him to touch me because my wolf needs it.

Of course, what had I expected from him? He was an Alpha. He is strong and very disciplined. Unlike me who couldn’t hold myself and my hungry wolf back.

I looked down, suddenly embarrassed I’d confessed so much more than I should. Due to the heat of the moment, due to the amazing pleasure he had given me, I had stupidly spilled out things I should have just kept to myself.

Things that should be left dead and buried inside of me! How more senseless would I be? I sighed, already deciding within myself to just leave and save my face from more embarrassment. frёewebηovel.cѳm

But his voice suddenly came again. "No, it isn’t like that. It wasn’t like yours."

I slowly looked back up as he still didn’t turn around to face me. "It was much worse."

I froze as I wasn’t expecting him to say anything anymore.

"My wolf became restless the very moment our bond snapped into place." He spoke almost as though confessing a crime. "It didn’t start from the night when I first touched you against the pillar."

"Not after but instead; it started the moment I realized you were my mate." He let out a humorless laugh. "I’ve been fighting him ever since."

I continue staring at him dumbfounded.

"I’ve deprived my wolf of pleasure for weeks, I’ve restrained him and I’ve forced him into silence."

His jaw tightened. "Do you know what that does to a wolf?"

I slowly shook my head even though I knew he couldn’t see me because his back was still turned to me. Still, he continued.

"It makes him angry, frustrated and violent. Every day I pass you in the corridors... I pretend not to notice you. I see you working sometimes and my wolf wants me to come hold you in my arms and do crazy things to your body."

"I steal glances that I shouldn’t have to." His shoulders rose with a long breath. "And every time I force myself to look away...My wolf reminds me exactly who you are to us."

Warmth blossomed inside my chest as I couldn’t stop smiling. Those words... They meant more than I could describe.

I was happy he felt it too. He didn’t only feel it... He’d been suffering through it just like myself. Because of me and because of us.

Alpha Kael suddenly said again, "The deprivation had always made me angry and frustrated, knowing the scale of the consequences of our bond made me want to stay far away from you."

I slowly climbed off the bed as the sheet remained wrapped around me as I crossed the room.

My bare feet met the wooden floor one careful step at a time and I stopped only a short distance behind him.

"Then..." My voice barely rose above a whisper. "What if we stopped fighting it?"

He remained motionless as I continued. "What if..." I smiled sadly. "...just once... we ignored everything else?"

I stepped even closer. "What if we simply became Kael and Selena?"

"There’s no Alpha, there’s no runaway daughter and there’s no enemies. It’s just..." I swallowed before adding. "...us."

His shoulders visibly stiffened. When he finally answered, his voice sounded almost painful. "We can’t do that."

"Why?" I swiftly asked.

He closed his eyes briefly. "My castle is crawling with spies. The one who stole your father’s cloak and left wasn’t the only one. One careless moment... one witness... one careless rumour..."

He shook his head. "And everything will be jeopardized. Before we even realize what’s happened... Alpha William will be standing outside Blackbourne’s gates."

I knew he was right. Every word was true yet... Knowing didn’t make accepting easier.

I took another slow step closer to him again until I stood directly behind him. Without speaking, I gently rested my hand against his back.

His muscles tensed immediately beneath my fingertips. I smiled faintly then I leaned forward and placed a soft kiss against his back.

He inhaled sharply and the next moment, he turned toward me as his hand rose to cradle my jaw with surprising tenderness as our eyes met.

Neither of us spoke. Then I deliberately left the sheet covering my body to loosen to the floor as I exposed myself to him.

His gaze flickered downward for only the briefest instant before returning to my face. His restraint was almost tangible.

"I’ve heard stories," I whispered. "About mates... what they do to themselves, about how they care for each other, and how they protect one another. I’ve seen some myself and I secretly imagined myself doing them with you."

A faint smile touched my lips. "I used to think they were exaggerated but I don’t think so anymore."

His thumb brushed lightly against my cheek as I continued. "You had crossed some of them when you fingered me earlier but there’s one particular one I would like to do with you."

I suddenly grabbed his cock through his chausses and he flinched while I froze.

I was initially startled at his size but as I continued to play with it, I got accustomed to it quickly and soon began to enjoy it as Kael groaned into my neck.

I used both hands to fondle him before whispering into his ear"Can I pull off your chausses?"

That’s when Alpha Kael pulled back hesitantly, shaking his head as he paced around.

I was slightly frustrated as I snapped, "There’s no one here with us and one session of pleasure wouldn’t bring my father automatically to Blackbourne pack borders, so why was he rejecting me?"

"I am not!" Alpha Kael claimed.

Then I asked the frustrating question, "Why wouldn’t you mate with me?" freёwebnovel.com

Alpha Kael faced me and asked, "Is that what you’re trying to do?"

I shrugged smugly and he held my neck and pinned me to the wall." You should be careful what you wish for."

"I’ve been careful all this while... Do you want to see me unhinged?" I asked but before he could answer, I ripped his chausses apart.

"You have been the disobedient one and now, I’m going to punish you!!!"